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$xhtml = array(
	'<{title}>' => 'Almost gone',
	'takedown' => '2017-11-01',
	'<{body}>' => <<<END
<img src="/img/CC_BY-SA_4.0/y.st./weblog/2019/06/25.jpg" alt="Neighbourhood streets" class="framed-centred-image" width="800" height="480"/>
<section id="diet">
	<h2>Dietary intake</h2>
	<p>
		For breakfast, I had a protein shake.
		I didn&apos;t really have lunch like I should have, and instead snacked on pretzels while I studied.
		I had a whopping 448 grams of pretzels.
		However, they didn&apos;t end up sustaining me, an I had to eat an energy bar at work too.
		For dinner, I had 271 grams of spaghetti and marinara.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="laser">
	<h2>Hair-removal</h2>
	<p>
		The doctor noticed my slimmer figure pretty quickly.
		That&apos;s a good sign.
		They only see me once per month, so it&apos;s easier for them to see if there&apos;s a big change.
		The process is so gradual from my perspective that I&apos;m sometimes not even sure I&apos;m making progress.
	</p>
	<p>
		We couldn&apos;t talk much today.
		I had that mouth guard in again, so I couldn&apos;t really speak.
	</p>
	<p>
		One thing that they mentioned and stuck out while I wasn&apos;t able to respond was that they try to help people that are in bad situations because when the whole world seems to be falling down on someone, they often think there can&apos;t be a god watching over the world.
		So ... they help people to convince them there&apos;s a god?
		That seems like a good summary of the situation.
		It doesn&apos;t seem like very convincing logic though.
		If a human helps me, why would that make me think some other entity I&apos;ve never experienced exists?
		But still, it makes the claim that Yahweh works through people seem more feasible to people.
	</p>
	<p>
		We got to talking about some things after I was out from under the $a[laser], and they ended up asking about my transition.
		They asked if I was changing my name, so I replied that I already had.
		They wanted to know my new name, and were surprised to learn it was the name they already had.
		I changed my name before I met them.
		They thought the name I gave them was my masculine birth name; that&apos;s the magic of non-binary names such as &quot;Alex&quot;: they can go either way.
		They asked if I was on ... something.
		I don&apos;t recall what, but I hadn&apos;t heard of it before.
		After some clarification, it seems it&apos;s probably related to oestrogen treatments.
		I explained how I can&apos;t get on the treatment because it&apos;d mess with my hormone balance and I&apos;d cease to be me any more.
		Then we talked about brain science and gender for a bit.
	</p>
	<p>
		They also mentioned that the upper lip, which is where the $a[laser] has been hurting most, has an overlap of nerved from both sides.
		With more nerves, there&apos;s more pain.
		I made the guess that it was because that&apos;s where our facial seam is.
		In the womb, our skin doesn&apos;t cover us at first the way it does the rest of our lives.
		It spreads across the body, and eventually meets up with itself in certain spots to close up around us.
		If I recall, we humans have three such seams visible.
		I forget where one of them is.
		One&apos;s on the upper lip, under the nose.
		That pair of ridges is where the skin from both sides meets up.
		Another is at the genitals.
		It&apos;s visible on male genitalia, both on the penis and the scrotum, but I&apos;m not sure if it&apos;s visible on female genitalia.
		I only mentioned the facial seam to the doctor though, as it was the only one I was thinking about at the time.
		They think I should get into medicine, as I seem to know things about the human body, such as the presence of seams in the skin and some brain science stuff.
		I don&apos;t think I&apos;d make a good medical professional though.
		I&apos;m squeamish around blood and I don&apos;t trust the pharmaceutical industry.
		The doctor joked that no one trusts the pharmaceutical industry, and agreed that they&apos;re shady and don&apos;t have patients&apos; interests at heart.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="Minetest">
	<h2>Minetest</h2>
	<img src="/img/CC_BY-SA_3.0/minetest.net./weblog/2019/06/25.png" alt="A box locked up with chains" class="framed-centred-image" width="1024" height="600"/>
	<p>
		My chained-up box idea came out so much better than I thought it would.
		It&apos;s not perfect.
		But it&apos;s reasonably decent.
		The chain uses only two colours, and alternates between them, using one colour on each chain link.
		It allows the individual links to be distinguished even in such a small space, and looks a lot less goofy than I feared it would.
	</p>
	<p>
		These boxes still have no functionality; only a design.
		All four nodes have been designed now though.
		From here, I&apos;ll work on functionality and recipes.
	</p>
	<p>
		Oh.
		Yeah.
		I&apos;ve been thinking, and I don&apos;t think I&apos;m going to leave the Windows-incompatible part in my code after all.
		I hate having to cater to Windows&apos; idiocy, but Windows users are a valuable pare of the Minetest community.
		I mean, not because they use Windows, of course, but because they&apos;re taking an interest in Minetest.
		These people shouldn&apos;t be pushed away.
		I need to swallow my pride and remove the part of the code that Windows can&apos;t handle.
		But ... not just yet.
		I want to have at least a little fun first.
		I&apos;ll release version 0.0.0 with the code as I&apos;d prefer it to be.
		Assuming anyone actually tries to download Zero, if they complain that they can&apos;t get it working, depending on how specific they can be about their issue, I&apos;ll change the file names to be Windows-compatible.
		They&apos;re going to have to be able to understand the problem enough to tell me what&apos;s going on.
		Mostly though, it&apos;s just because I want to see what happens when a Windows machine tries to open a ZIP file containing files with names it doesn&apos;t like.
		I want to see what it&apos;s like from the perspective of said Windows user, and I can&apos;t do that without them explaining the situation from their end.
		It&apos;s entirely possible that Windows will do something stupid such as automatically stripping out characters from file names or even just omitting those files from the decompressed copy.
		What exactly is going to go wrong?
		I have to know.
		That&apos;s the price for getting me to write less-pretty code for the sake of Windows users.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="drudgery">
	<h2>Drudgery</h2>
	<p>
		My discussion posts for the day:
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			Thanks for verifying that I hadn&apos;t missed something.
			It&apos;s odd then that the instructions say that we should submit something.
			I guess I&apos;ll probably submit a paragraph about the experience or something.
			Thank you!
		</p>
	</blockquote>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			I like your explanation of the various terms.
			In particular, your explanation of clipping made me think.
			Like you said, it makes sense to clip away things that won&apos;t be seen.
			The only {$a['3D']} game I play though, Minetest, does clipping in a bit of an odd way.
			It doesn&apos;t clip things in relation to the camera.
			Instead, it clips according to increments of sixteen units in the world coordinates.
			Most of the time, your camera angle is neither parallel nor perpendicular to the clipping lines.
			I assume a second set of clips related to the camera are performed afterwards, but there&apos;s definitely clipping done with total disregard to the eye space.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
</section>
<section id="Summer">
	<h2>Summer</h2>
	<p>
		Summer stopped by again today.
		Again, not for long.
		She left me some pants an told me to let her know by Friday if I was interested in the suits from before.
		I&apos;d already let her know I wouldn&apos;t wear them, but whatever.
		So I told her that.
	</p>
	<p>
		Anyway ...
		Friday.
		I guess that&apos;s when her yard sale is?
		Hopefully that goes well.
		Hopefully she gets rid of all the stuff she&apos;s trying to.
		Then she can get moved, and then she can get gone.
		I guess she thinks giving me the stuff she&apos;s trying to get rid of might endear me to her or something, but it really won&apos;t.
		It doesn&apos;t erase the fact that all I can ever be to her is just a penis.
		I&apos;m not interested in a relationship with someone that sees me that way.
	</p>
</section>
END
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